He Has Found Me
by Sadie Severson
“I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which He has called you, the riches of His glorious inheritance in His holy people…” –Ephesians 1:18
Three years ago, I didn’t know God. I knew He existed, but I never knew Him. I did not think that three years later I would be saved by Jesus and writing a devotional about my life’s Bible verse.
I was really good friends with a girl down the street and later learned that she did not believe in God. During the time of our friendship I started my journey with God. At one point my friend started to be a little more interested in Christianity, which I got really excited about. I started explaining topics to her and showing her new things I learned about God. I was very eager to share what I was learning and thought she was becoming more interested as well. Then she had a dream; I think it was from God. In the dream my friend appeared engulfed in flames (it reminded her of hell); she cried out for Jesus and the dream stopped. I thought for sure this was a sign from God and could be a turning point in her relationship with Him. However, this was not the case and she actually started turning away from God. This was a little disappointing, but she was still my friend. Unfortunately, from this point on she started going down a different path. It was a path that I didn’t agree with and one I knew my parents would certainly not approve of, either. I pleaded with her to change her ways, but at some point, I had to let the friendship go. I didn’t want to do it, but I asked God and He knew it was the right thing to do. Our friendship slowly deteriorated, but I never stopped praying for her and always wave hello when I see her in our neighborhood. After I stopped being friends with her, I have learned that you have to trust God. Even though I loved being her friend, I knew what I needed to do. Because I trusted in God, my relationship with Him has only grown from there.
Throughout my life I have felt lost and broken. I have cried for answers. There were times I felt that my prayers went unheard or unanswered. God has now revealed to me how very wrong I was. I felt an urge and a need to know exactly how my future would be. I felt pressured to start preparing for all the things that would come years down the road, because at those times I didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life. I felt miserable and unneeded in the world. I felt blind. It felt as if I was walking through life with a white cane. I wasn’t okay with that; I wanted to see so badly, but I couldn’t. God allowed me to feel blind for a reason. He wants to reveal the creative, exciting, and sometimes rough path He designed especially for me. Recently He has taught me how to see through my blindness. He showed me how to rely on Him alone. He is training me to follow my calling that He gave me. My life verse relates to God’s work in my life now, since He has enlightened me to see that all I need to do is walk blindly with Him. I ask God that you can see the person He created you to be and the glory of your future He designed, that you will see what He intended for you to receive as a follower of Christ.
Dear Lord, I have walked in blindness, stumbling upon a path of doubt and feeling lost in the person I was. I pray that You will hold my hand and guide me through these uncertain times with all the ups and downs that come with life. I know that my path ahead with You may not always be clear, but with You by my side I will always find my way. In Jesus’ name, Amen.